this is crazy ... 2 years later and I'm back on my blog and shit a whole lot has changed !

so I can't believe this but if experienced love I've lived in stellinbosh for a year and put on 10 KGs and now I'm in PTA were I'm studying somatology and I've list 10KGs LOl
you see what I mean when I say a shit load has happened in two years

I wanna talk about LoVE cuz I feel like I had no idea what it was and now I feel like I experienced the ups and downs of it

you see that boy I liked in Valentines day in 2012 we'll we are dating to this day , that just proves if you put your mind to something or some1 you can get it !

I've been the saddest and happiest person in the past 2 years and I feel like I was on the verge of extinction at one stage , when you so unhappy with your self you don't see the reason to exist
I was depressed I didn't get any help and I hated myself and because I hated myself everything that was good for me I made it my goal to destroy it and I still tend to do so

the bigger picture was that I had no idea who I was and that ruined me inside

but now that iv got that off my chest I just want everyone that reads this to no I'm in a better place I do still struggle with my feelings and thoughts so maybe if some1 reaches out to me I'd appreciate it lots